Disaster strikes. I entered one trade, a breakout long, close to highs of day on Monday, against all my rules and it just went against me and wouldn't stop. I went on tilt and tried to hedge, but ended jumping in and out of hedges. In the end I closed for just over a $2K loss. Half of that loss being the hedges. From the moment it went against me I knew it was a wrong trade, but I didn't cut it off. Why? Well I started the week knowing I only really had this day to trade and I waited a few hours with not entries and got frustrated and started looking for entries rather than waiting. Next I'd just started a low cargb diet and realised later my electrolyes were low and I was feeling on edge. So the desperate need to get some pips and not having full focus did me. In the end I did cut it off, so at least only a 1% loss and not a full 3.3%. Entry long at 11:35 UK on EJ and exited just after 15:00 UK, right at the low of day. If I hadn't hedged and held my nerve I would have made a good profit as the move went 49 pips up. The fact it was a breakout in a bad position added to my mental state as I knew it was all wrong and I just had to cut it off. I also don't hedge as it is not part of my strategy so I was definitely on full tilt. I had the chance to trade Friday afternoon but let it pass as I my mind was still not right after this. I need to find my equilibrium again.